wow

wow. it has been a long while since i have last posted.a good 2.5 months. and lots has changed in that time. adam has a new job. we have moved from one corner of the state to almsot the complete opposite one. although, i must say we are now in a much better part of the state. jackson was just way too flat with way too much corn. no trees or lakes. plus no stores or anything to do. duluth is a huge improvement. beautiful town. lots to do indoors and outdoors. we are less than a mile from lester park - so golfing, hiking trails, biking trails, ski trails in the winter, skating rink.
our duplex is starting to feel like home. we are about 90% unpacked. just a few more random things to find homes for. lots of our stuff is in the basement just beign stored for now. but we're starting to get pictures up on the walls and making it ours.
i haven't had a whole lot of free time so far. adam was home last week so we spend most of the time unpackign and stuff. then we had to take a second trip back to jackson with another trailer to get some more stuff.
adam started work on monday. i dropped him off so i could run some errands. kind of a pain though, cuz adam works a good 20 minutes from our house so to drop him off or pick up in takes almost an hour. oh well. hopefully we'll be able to buy a cheap car sometime soon. once i start subbing.... which could be a few more weeks.
hopefully doesn't take too long. i think i'm going to be having anxiety issues / attacks quite frequently until i get in to a routine and meet people. ugh. i hate it. i had been having some bad pain in my arm pit and my arm was like half asleep constantly, so i went in to an urgent care yesterday (all the regular clinics are accepting new patients, but you can't get in to be seen for at least a week or two) and the dr. was like yeah i really think it's just your anxiety issues. our minds can be the worst thing to us. so i was like, great. he thinks i'm psycho. but hopefully that is really all that it is. so he gave me a prescription, which i've actually used before, but not as much as he prescribed for me. so i started it last night and have been taking it since, but today have been totally out of it and naseous feeling. so yeah, not sure that i'm going to keep takign quite as much as he said to. maybe a half dose in the mornign and a whole at night. we'll see. that way it would last longer too. he only gave me 10 days worth and said to follow up with a primary care doctor if things aren't better in a couple days. yeah grea, seeing as i don't have a primary care dr here yet and i can' tget in to see any dr for at least a week. plus our insurance from adam's last job only lasts through the end of this month and his new insurance doesn't start until november. so i'm trying to get a hold of bcbs to arrange a 30 day coverage for the gap we're not covered. since i know i will have major anxiety issues if i'm not covered by something. blah. sometimes i hate my head. it's just so frustrating because i was finally adjusted in jackson and doing well. i think i could have even gotten a full time para job at the m iddle school if we hadn't been leaving. they had called me to schedule an interview and then i called them back to cancel it since we decided for sure to move, and she sounded a bit upset. (although, probably more upset that i waited so long to cancel the interview - but i know they have a tough time finding people willing to do those jobs) whatever thoguh. not sure i would have really wanted to do that job anyways.

let's see. beth came up a couple days ago. she has decided to have her wedding in duluth now - she wants a big wedding and doesn't want people to not be able to come due to location (instead of hawaii) so we went and looked at wedding dresses on tuesday. found a few she really liked. then on wednesday we went and looked at a couple of churches (didn't talk to anyone there - she just wanted to look at them cuz she doesn't want an "ugly" church) and then we went to superior shores and the decc to look at their reception spaces. superior shores was beautiful, but just looking through their paperwork, it looks like you have to guarantee that your guests will reserve at least 30 rooms at the resort, which seems a bit difficult. their prices are a little higher than a hotel would be, plus shanes family lives in cloquet so i doubt they would stay and who knows how many others would want to pay the money to stay there. so who knows. looks like probably the decc. except that their availabiltiy was somewhat limited for the timing beth is thinking. but anyways. it was fun doing wedding stuff. i love planning that stuff. and i got asked to be a bridesmaid for the wedding, so i'm super excited about that too.

grr. and now my arm is hurting again. i hate it. i mean i spose i could have pulled something whiel we were moving and lifting heavy boxes, but it seems like a really wierd spot to be sore from that. and it's such a pin-point pain. argh. frustrating. i think it's about time to take some drugs and get some sleep.
this weekend we're heading to my parents. erin's wedding is on saturday and i think it's gonna be a pretty long day, seeing as it takes a good hour to get there and the ceremony starts at 1, social hour at 4:30, dinner at 6 and dance at 8. yikes. but should be fun i hope.

ok. time for some medication and sleep.