ohio

so at the moment, i'm really not liking ohio. i know a lot of it is because i am so homesick. but i don't know. i'm just sick of it. i have no friends here. the job i just started sucks.
my sister and cousin, lindsey, came out this past weekend and surprised me with a visit. they got here thursday night around 10:30. and just my luck i had to start my new job friday morning, but luckily only had to work until noon. then the rest of the day, i showed them around and stuff and then we all went out to dinner. saturday we made a big breakfast then went to this little hippie town nearby and looked around the shops. then we picked up subway and went to a state park nearby and had a picnic and did some hiking. that was fun. the leaves are just startign to turn colors so it was really pretty. then we came back and adam went to work on his airplane and the 3 of us went to the mall. we all go a few things that i dont' think any of us could afford, but oh well. then we came back and made chocolate chip cookies and homemade pizza and cheesy bread and watched napolean dynamite. on sunday we made breakfast and looked at some wedding pics, and then basically had to go bring them to the airport. so that sucked. their visit was way too short, but what can you do. they both couldn't miss classes. carly read their tickets wrong too, so we got there an hour early, but oh well. we just hung out for awhile before they went in. so then they left and we drove back home. and i spent the rest of the day miserable and crying. it's just so hard. i think it's good that it was a surprise that they were coming because it would have been even harder when they left, cuz i would have been so excited for their visit. and i'm glad they came. it just made me miss my family and home even more. but hopefully i'll be working more now, and that will help. i hope.
as far as my new job... not so cool. it's a very old dental office, and to me old just seems dirty. especially in medical type buidlings. i was hired as a receptionist and was told that would be what i mainly did, but would have some patient contact and do some work with them too. ok.. fine. i was thinking maybe like showing them to their room. but no. showing them to their room. taking their x-rays out and developing. and i've heard that i will be flossing teeth and cleaning and stuff. which i just don't think i can handle. plus i was looking up the state laws and i feel like it's kind of borderline what i would be asked to do. dr. assistants can have on the job training and do certain things. but hygenists must have schooling and a state license and are the only ones who can do certain things. and there are no hygenists in the office. and i feel like the duties i am supposed to do would be borderline crossing into hygenist duties. which i really do not feel comfortable with, especially with the legal standpoint. plus the old, unorganized office just grosses me out. so do other people's mouths.
so i'm supposed to work this afternoon. and i still haven't decided what to do. i really want to quit. i know i shouldn't. but it's my 2nd day in a 6 week trial. so i can quit at anytime with no hard feelings. so i don't know. i just don't feel comfrotable there. and the same day i got hired, i got my subbing license in the mail and a letter saying i will be in the subbing system of a district at the end of this week. so, now that that came through, i'm not so worried about $ and stuff. i know subbing will probably be somewhat irregular, but at least i'm trained for that and feel comfortable with it. and in the long run, that's the experience i need. a future teaching job is not going to be influenced by my job in a dental office. so i think i really need to quit at the dental office and be more available for subbing. if after awhile, we decide that subbing isn't regular enough, i can then pursue other options that i feel comfortable with. i think i'll work my few hours this afternoon, and then call it quits. unless something drastic has changed. blah. i hate ohio. i know the job opportunities would probably not be any better in minnesota, but i'd be able to sub anywhere, and would have been able to sub since september, bringing in some money. plus i'd have my friends and family around and wouldn't be going so stircrazy sitting at home waiting for jobs and paperwork to come through.
other cool news is that my cousin is pregnant! i'm so excited. it's still early, so hopefully all goes well. and they'll have a baby in june! that will be so cool. i think i'm going to start an afghan for them soon.